my hands shoot lazers

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 21:27:31 GMT

German Lesson 1

translate to english and reply with the answers

Ich mag in Parks beim Schnüffeln der Hunde gehen.
Alexis ist in Deutschland, während ich Amerika liebe.
Autos sind für das Fahren, während Füße für das Laufen sind.
Ihr Körper wird gut beim Sitzen auf einer Toilette angesehen.
Fischen ist Spaß, Fischen ist groß.
Ihre Füße riechen wie ein Clown lustig.

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 21:17:45 GMT

i am currently the proud owner of an amazing piece of technology, i would be willing to wager money on the thought that in four hundred years this piece of machinery will easily be found in museums throughout the cosmos. So without further adieu i will be living in the relm of Dynasty Warrior on my newly acquired playstation two.
good bye reality, hello insomnia

Wed, 11 Aug 2004 20:54:52 GMT

i seem to be in and situated now and since i live far far away from everyone you should come by or call me
323-0585
913 W. 3rd Street
Bloomington IN 47404

1,2,-2,1

Sat, 31 Jul 2004 21:27:34 GMT

There was a young lady named Bright
Who's speed was far faster than light;
She set out one day
In a relative way
And returned on the previous night.

everyone should read How to Build a Time Machine by Paul Davies

I will be making seige weapons and mortar cannons in the backyard of the house i will be living in with adam justin benny and dustin, i know those will be easier than making a time machine. After the weapons are finished then i plan on attempting time travel. ...i wonder if i can get goverment funding for that

Thu, 29 Jul 2004 00:10:58 GMT

i've noticed i have ended up reaching a point with this where it is mainly for voyeuristic purposes than really putting anything down worthwhile that i would want to remember for years down the road.
i'm going to pee my pants in the library...... it is good to have short term goals along with your longer ones so you can complete something everyday, making it feel as productive as possible. liugyzsdfilutvb;oszufhdjkowemccieeodfjvgrt'pierfoeefnf oriffgj4opiu iuifudjd'iourekodfjds'sdf 'ijfifiedfjfp jfpf pio ffip jj jfejseijgijg iopjerg ij ijiopjiopj 'i gjigjeoveropjgklfgjir9mn kr ip rp' j piorj a' fv'r p o prvijvpj jbbj o o j jij j
nuff' said

all you need to do is paint your face red

Sat, 17 Jul 2004 19:40:55 GMT

toronto was a great time.... how bout the dirty south or NYC for our next trip.

this summer has been pretty good to me and i have the scars to prove it. last night at the cure/fall/joy division cover show i realized who the 2nd guitarist for the satanic mother fuckers will be, now i just need to talk to him. i see him all the time and just walk right past him never saying anything. i need to make it a point to talk to him.
i will be up in indianapolis over the coming weekend for work, so i will most likely be stopping in at dudefest so you fuckers (you know who you are) should be there, i miss alot of you northerners.
by the 10th i will be in the new house. i'm loking forward to that, and i will be driving my car again in about a week. i'll be making weekly trips to logansport, kokomo, and shipsy to hang out and spending time with my father working on a motorcycle to get it running and bring back to bloomington.
alexis will be moving really soon to germany, i will really miss her when she leaves, she has been a wonderful roomate and friend. of course i would never let her know this and still tell her how much i hate her cramping my style.
if anybody wants to break in somewhere, jen doesn't lock her windows.

things i need to do:
1. car car car
2. look into living off of financial aid for cosmotology school for the next 2 years
2 1/2. if #2 fails then find a job that doesn't make me want to gut myself
3. party it up with jaxon jj and lindsay on the lake
4. keep being awsome

later douche bags

who you gonna do after dark

Fri, 25 Jun 2004 22:41:05 GMT

i think i need to find some way to keep on task. there are so many things i think i want to do but they rarely make it past the stage of being an idea. Maybe i should just make a list and every day progress in one or two items on the list a day. That would be making atleast some headway, and anything would be more than i have been doing in the last few months. It is just to damn easy to do nothing.
Also, i think my body has aged many many years in the last year. or i put it through alot more than i use to. I am sure running around drunk as balls, falling out of trees, sleeping on porches, and everything else that has been going on. Maybe i need to calm down... or raise the bar, there is no fun in living over your age. But i don't really know what i am talking about, i'm only going to be 24... but why do i feel i'll be turning 40. i just wan to forever stay young i suppose, if not in age then atleast in mind. Is this a lack of interest in growing up, or responsability? i don't really think it is quite that but just wanting to enjoy everything i can now insteads of when i retire and move to florida like most other senior citizens.
I woder if this even makes sense... my thought process feels a bit fucked. it's fun frolic night, bye

Tue, 18 May 2004 00:16:13 GMT

it's odd how i go for half a year not using this then think "oh yeah what ever happened tho that thing" so when i decide to use it i just feel like there is nothing i really want to say. either things are just ... well they are important to me but i guess just not interesting, like finally owning my car after 4 years of payments, having contacts, plans of going to school, or getting fucked up on a saturday night and waking on god day with the worst burning sensation. and then when i feel it does make the grade i start to wonder if i really want the whole world (meaning the 30-40 friends on here) to know. i guess if someone really cares what is going on in your life then they would write you and ask. so from here on out anytime i write it may or maynot be truth but the funny thing is.... it doesn't really matter.
L
ryan

Tue, 02 Mar 2004 23:57:05 GMT

so it has been a while since i have used this but it is such a wonderful day outside i figured i would spend it in the library where everyone around me has to put up with the fact that i haven't been wearing any deoderant for the last few days and i have been wearing the same shirt... but it is ok.... trust me, i am clean.

Plans have been made for this coming August and a move to Chicago. With a couple sweet dudes i plan on sharing a bed with if they will let me, or atleast on the floor in their room. I mean, i will have my own bedroom and all my stuff there, i just want to be in the same room as him so i can listen to his.... ehhh enough of that.
yeah, moving so.... come visit me in bloomington because when i move to chicago i will disown all of you.

later/fuck off
ryan

Mon, 21 Jul 2003 10:35:44 GMT

well, so much for planning on going to bed. i don't know what it is about this screen that just seems to draw me in and fill me with such vigor. so, to keep from just zoning out and watching cartoons on the internet i figured i would give one of these a go, swiped straight from sinisterfeeling but edited a bit

[my name is] ryan
[height] 6'2? or is it 6'1
[age] 22
[in the morning i am] asleep
[all i need is] friends + beer + music
[love is] only done in an elevator
[if i could see one person right now] i would see phill, just
cause he is the only one that would wake up when i throw rocks
at his window late at night.
[i'm afraid of] not being able to find a decent paying job here
and having to move away

-H A V E . Y O U . E V E R-
[pictured your crush naked] no
[actually seen your crush naked] no
[been in love] yes
[cried when someone died] i can't think of a time off the top of
my head
[lied] yes

-W H I C H . I S . B E T T E R-
[coke or pepsi] umm mountain dew of course
[flowers or candy] flowers
[tall or short] medium?

-W I T H . T H E . O P P O S I T E . S E X-
[what do you notice first] asside from outward appearance and
style, probably have to go with wether or not periods of
silence are awkward or not
[last person you slow danced with] probably either joey watts or
my mother, neither put out though

-W H O-
[makes you laugh the most] a toss up between all three of the
ladies and their crazy shenanigans
[makes you smile] lauv
[gives you a funny feeling when you see them] lauv
[who do you have a crush on] lauv again
[has a crush on you] umm? yeah, i would hope so
[easiest to talk to] phill with our late night car drives and
search for the freshest roadkill

-D O . Y O U . E V E R-
[Stay on aim, waiting for someone to IM] not so much anymore
[save AOL/aim conversations] nope
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex] sometimes i think it
would be easier to get free food and drinks at the bar that way
[cry because of someone saying something to you] yes, it has been
a while though

-H A V E . Y O U . E V E R-
[fallen for your best friend] i wouldn't say at the time we were
best friends, but we are now
[been rejected] yes
[rejected someone] yes
[used someone] told phill i used him for his candy and video
games... i still think he doesn't believe me
[been cheated on by someone] yes
[cheated on someone] thats bad news yo
[done something you regret] who doesn't, but you get over it after
a while

-W H O . W A S . T H E . L A S T . P E R S O N-
[you talked to on the phone] lauv
[hugged] lauv
[you instant messaged] phill
[instant messaged you?] mel
[you laughed with] lauv

-D O . Y O U / / A R E . Y O U-
[color your hair] not anymore
[habla espanol] nope, took 2 years of it though, but wasn't paying
attention in class thanks to brooke
[smoke cigarettes] yes
[obsessive] not to my knowledge
[could you live without the computer] i have to many friends that
i keep in contact with that live quite some distance from me,
but i could go for a month before i would get the itch
[how many peeps are on your buddylist] 76, i think it needs a
little cleaning out
[what's your favorite food] anything i don't make and has
mushrooms or broccoli in it
[whats your favorite fruit] hmm, maybe kiwi or bananas
[drink alcohol] not very often, mainly it is always beer but i do
like my russians
[like watching sunrises or sunset] sunsets, sunrises just remind me of how long ive been awake
[what hurts the most, physical or emotional pain] emotional
[trust others way too easily] i find it hard to trust most people,
but i am working on that

well, that was a good 40 minutes.
good nite

Just be aware of your polarity

Mon, 21 Jul 2003 06:17:27 GMT

the last 2 weeks have been great and everyday just seems to get better and better.
amazing i tell ya

Sun, 06 Jul 2003 07:27:25 GMT

just got back from the bar but i just wasn't really feeling it. so far i have only had the house to myself for 2 days and already i wish my roomates were back. and to think they will be gone on tour for the rest of the month! fuck, i need to come up with something to do while they are gone.
On Monday i have my second interview for the new job i am getting. i am nearly 100% sure i will be getting it since they already showed me around and said "this and this is what you will be doing" I will be developing negatives and making prints from all different sizes of film, and editing video and transfering to dvd from vhs and all that other shit. Also the guy said that most likely i will work on the sister business as one of their staff photographers when they need an extra to help out. I mainly am looking forward to the tech and post production side of it all though, i have had enough time behind the camera for someone other than my own personal interests.
well, it has finally cooled off in the house thanks to the rain earlier today so i'm off to my room.
goodnite

Fri, 23 May 2003 19:30:57 GMT

i should have slept in much longer today considering how i feel right now damn. last night was filled with bike riding then back to HQ for some beers and good laughs. By the time i was done drinking i was well beyond riding my bike home and ended up crashing on the floor for the night, which was a good idea considering i really needed to get up early today so i could take care of my parking ticket. so; i ride home, clean up, and then headed out to get the ticket taken care of. Luckily i ended up getting out of paying for it with a little sweet talk to the ladies there.
I should be headed for logansport on sunday if everything goes as planned. Brooke and i head out of here saturday, stay in indy for a show and then hit logan so i can pick up some stuff that i have been needing.
thats the plan, buit we will see

don't forget your disk

Wed, 14 May 2003 01:22:46 GMT

well this is the first time i have had a chance to get to a computer since i got to bloomington. So far things have been decent i suppose, other than a really bad toothache and not knowing anyone except for a few friends who are always busy and my roomates that i don't really talk to. it is quite a weird feeling to go for almost 23 years knowing that any time you want you can walk right over to your childhood friend's house and have somethign to do right then. it kind of makes me realize that even though logansport is quite drab we were always able to find somethign to do with our time and enjoy each other's company.
so, on wednesday i go in to start my job on the telephone trying to sell subscriptions of national geographic and sweepers, and already i am thinking about quitting. If i quit though patrick and i wouldn't get the extra 50 bucks for staying there 4 weeks. Although the job i am going to get in it's place is much better for me and i get FREE health,dental,and eye insurance after three months. considering on how my tooth has been lately that would be the smartest thing for me to do.
so, my time limit is about up here at the library i imagine so i am off to walk kirkwood.
goodnite

goodbye and hello

Thu, 01 May 2003 22:12:01 GMT

well i have been packing on and off for the last week or so in order to be ready for moving. it seems the more i stick in boxes and set aside, the messier my room is getting. I turned in a notice to my editor that i am quiting on the 8th and i was planning on moving all my stuff down to bloomington on the 9th but now i find out that my father will be off work on saturday so the new date for when i truck it down to btown is the 10th. That will give me 2 days to unpack and get setup, then monday i go out and scour the town for a job.
One of the main reasons i didn't want to leave the newspaper is because i didn't want to have to give them back their cameras but the worst has happened and they reminded me to not "accidently" pack them up and take them with me. damn.
My new address and # will be
214 E. 11th street (812) 331-1024
Bloomington IN
47408-3444
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a look at an adult police officer

Thu, 27 Mar 2003 04:55:50 GMT

the hardest thing to do is try to type with thoughts running through your head and a little 3 year old wanting you to sing the Spiderman theme song with him and scream at the top of your lungs "WATCHOUT! Here comes the Spiderman,” yes it is fun... but only for the first ten times.

So, in the last 3 years or I have come up with this wonderful way of coping with the fact of living in Logansport. What do I do you ask? I leave. Every so often I make a trip out of town and stay away or a few days, sometimes in Bloomington, sometimes West Lafayette and a few other places in-between. My reasons for these little excursions are in no way related to my friends or family, just my great detest for Logan.
My last trip out of town was just this last weekend when I packed up the car and headed for Bloomington to attend my friends, Monica and Brooke’s birthday party. The theme was late 60's Las Vegas. There were drinks, gambling, dancing, and hula hoops as the party started to loose its strict era guideline.
Well, as for me I had to work on Saturday so right after work I went straight there, not giving myself time to change my clothes so I could fit a bit closer to the 60's theme, oh well no problems with that cause maybe half of the 70+ people there weren’t dressed appropriately. So, I said my hellos to friends there and made my way to the fridge to scope out the alcohol situation. That was safe, there were approximately two dirty thirties cooling down with a decent amount of hard liquor still floating round. So the party went a little like this... yadda yadda yadda, double fisting, blah blah blah, "LoGanSport!LoGanSport!".... then I decided I was done drinking, actually I came to that conclusion a few beers to late and spent the next 45 minutes outside trying to make myself puke.
Well, I accomplished that mission then went to lay down for a bit, not knowing that it was during the craziest part of the party with spin the bottle, and make out corners. Oh well, I learned my lesson and next time I will not miss out.
Also there was a fair amount of drama, but if you weren’t there then I guess you won't understand.
The next day after I get up Brooke, Nick, Dori, and I prepare ourselves for the 5 hour drive to Chicago. The ride consisted of some tense driving moments courtesy of dori's dislike for Chicago driving. So when we got there we met up with Mark Treka from Static Films who we were staying with and was playing the show that night with The Impossible Shapes and Songs:Ohia at Schubas. We made it to the show with little to no problem, and the show was pretty good except I’m not a big fan of Songs:Ohia, although the other two bands made up a little for it. The show came to an end and by then I was in pain from lack of anything in my stomach since I had not eaten yet and whatever I had in my stomach the night before I discarded in the backyard through my mouth and nose.
Talking to some of the Chicago kids Brooke and I questioned for a possible Chinese restaurant that would be open around midnight or 1 am. Unfortunately the answer was no Chinese, BUT there was a Tai restaurant that supposable opened at 11 pm and closed at 6 am just a few blocks own the street. So we try to round up Dori who with her smuggled fifth of Jim was quite a hand full to prod in the direction of our destination. Two of the windy city kids we just met were an enjoyable company; Mandy with her pleasant voice and disposition, and her boyfriend Derrick who had moved there from Vancouver. Finally the six of us head in the direction of the restaurant, a good ten blocks later we see no signs of it and Dori decides she needs to piss and everyone except me were on their last nerve, Dori went over to a car and did here thing on the sidewalk since there was no chance of a place being open at 1am other than a fabled tai restaurant we were unable to locate. So at that point we were 2 blocks away from the house we were staying at and 11 blocks from the car we drove to the show. We tell our new found friends thanks but we were not going to be finding this restaurant anytime soon and so we made our separate ways, I still think that Derrick was a damn riot and I hope to run into that kid again next time I am in the area there. Nick and Brooke decide that they will go back to the car and bring it back and Dori and I will go ahead to the house since she wasn't being much help in her condition of inebriation. At the homestead Dori decides she wants to go over to the park... in Chicago, drunk, at 1am, and not very well lit..... I thought about it for a second then said ok, I’ll be inside c-ya and headed up the steps.
After good talks and laughs inside Brooke and Nick show up 2 and a half hours later from a walk to the car and drive back that should have only taken about an hour. I thought they got lost, Dori thought for some reason that they went back to Bloomington and left us... oh well, I know how to walk south.
With Brooke and Nick back we decide to go with new directions and a car to find this restaurant that seemed to be eluding us.
Luckily it was much easier to find this time and what a place it was. If all I did while in Chicago was drive to that restaurant to eat then drive back home this trip would have been totally worth it. Next time you are around the Damon area look it up and go there... the River Quai.
The next day was a lot easier on us and everyone's nerves. We woke up to a wonderful breeze and 75 degree weather and headed out to eat at EarWax and do some record shopping. Surprisingly it was a fairly uneventful day ending with falafel, wax, and a pair of Levis. Then we went back to Bloomington.

Now I am back in Logansport, sitting here at Joe’s house planning out my work week and wondering what my next trip will have in store for me. I have decided that I will start carrying my book with me to write in; I need to sharpen my writing ability very much. I just have so much I need to work on with it... I know this is quite broken and maybe doesn’t make the most sense during some parts but this is how it came to me while trying to remember it all and I just don’t want to bother going through and rereading and making changes. I will live
So, till some other time good nite and
I love you

Thu, 20 Feb 2003 10:01:20 GMT

i think that last jab left a bruise
good nite

Tue, 11 Feb 2003 07:15:54 GMT

i'm not feeling to uppidy right now. good night

what the hell are the chances of that

Fri, 31 Jan 2003 03:11:32 GMT

You are Ryan Baker. Aka Bake, Ryan, and Farnyarn.
You are really skinny and tall. Therefore, you
look like Jonny From Radiohead. Patrick Swayze
is your alter ego. You also have a wicked patch
of chest hair, which makes you look very manly
sometimes. You enjoy travelling long distances
to see bands play and you enjoy taking
pictures, unless its work related.
Unfortunately, your girlfriend lives in Canada,
so your down sometimes. You play the guitar in
a very unique style and jam alot with Joe.
Your vocal part is a mystery because you never
sing a damn note. You are a really nice and
caring person, although deep inside, there is a
Mr. Hyde. You also like RPG's.

Which L-Towner are you?
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The Disruption

Thu, 09 Jan 2003 09:58:04 GMT

well today was quite enjoyable. consisting of wrapping up a small girl in chains and padlocking her up then whipping out the cameras and capturing it all for prosperity. Then making a trip to Twelve Mile to hang around some family with a bunch of bison or buffalo or whatever you wish to call them. I thought i was going to get my foot chomped on by the hairy beasts and the father of the family told me to be careful and not run around or they would all run after me and mow me down... how very reasuring. Keep an eye out in the paper for these great works of art.(pfft) Still waiting on a few articles of mail so i can repack a package. i was just going to send two but sense i have put the first off this long i might as well wait and just send one. makes sense. I got the day off today so after i wake up and check the mail box i am thinking of heading out of town, don't know where yet though. anyone have any suggestions?

i need an FM Theremin Transmitter

Tue, 07 Jan 2003 10:45:15 GMT

today was pretty uneventful * -wake up/shower/dress -trip to walmart/martins -ate pizza with my parents, i haven't had a meal with them for a while. but for good reason -got a few dreamcast games on joe's computer and played some ddr with phill at the apartment -now here i am on the computer, have been for the last 5 hours waiting for someone who never showed up (trying to lay on the guilt trip here) listening to joe snore while beavis and butthead tape #2 plays...fuck, between that and this Antenna Builder CD i think i am really pushing my sanity (thanks Evan). fuck this -good nite *

Thu, 26 Dec 2002 04:55:06 GMT

the run down on christmas
my parents gave me cash for christmas about a week ago so with it insteads of spending it all on myself i spent the most of it on presents for others. but with what was left i got...
- the new song of zarathustra on vinyl, new hot hot heat on vinyl and the Walkmen and Calla Split e.p. on vinly.
- My parents also got me warm ass pajamas and a duffel bag
- at the grandparents house... lots of chocolate shit my cousin made and a v-neck black sweater
so in all not to bad, the day was pretty good. woke up at 8am because i went to bed the night before at 10pm, watched the family at home open presents, then went outside to shovel, we got eight inches of snow over the night so i got to shovel out six cars, our three and our neighbor's cars.(i just realized how horrible my runon sentences are)
i just recently sold an old super nintendo game on ebay for a little over 80 bucks so with what was left after the fees from ebay and paypal i placed an order for a few records...
- Walkmen, The 12" US: $9
- Mara'akate LP US: $9
- Forstella Ford - Quietus LP US: $8
- Red Light Sting - Our Love is Soaking in it! 12" US: $9
- DEL CIELO/SIN DESIRES MARIE 7" US: $4
- JR Ewing - Perfect Drama 10" US: $9
looking forward to that shipment. other than that, just work and sleep and try not to worry about things that are now out of my control.

Fri, 22 Nov 2002 01:36:38 GMT

i just got back from an assignment and while i was there my car was parked in the parking lot and thye car next to me when pulling out scrapped and dented in the whole back drivers side after the door. the thing that pisses me off is that they drove off before i was out there. fucking bitches get stitches when i find out who did it. and since it was the parking lot of the bar, it shouldn't be to hard for me to find out who did it. i can't go to the police and file it cause i don't have insurance, and doing so without it will get my license suspended. so i will have to take matters into my own hands {

Mon, 18 Nov 2002 07:49:59 GMT

this is honestly stupid, i should not be here at work when it is almost 3 in the morning trying to get a picture done. i should have done it earlier Saturday when i had the chance. went to see the dream is dead, mara'akate, and premonitions of war and hang out with friends... well, film is done. back to work

Thu, 14 Nov 2002 04:40:40 GMT

THAT'S SOME BIG ASS!!!!